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2/22/2010

confession of me!!!

mood: 
tak de mood
situasi: 
sepi saje
harapan: 
tinggal harapan
koordinat:
alam nyata
jam:
petang yang suram


confession of me
i know I'm wrong, last two day i have done something stupid to someone...someone that i used to give all my love for him before...but then, when he betrayed me...everything change...i fertilize my hate to him as much as i can, i plant his hate tree for him inside my heart...and let that hate tree have it fertile life...what ashamed of me...i claimed people around me treating me badly but i never realize that i have done wrong to someone too...i wrote my sadness here, feeling sad because i have done something wrong to someone, i feel regret, and at the same time, i feel guilty...i have spoke many bad words...only to make someone hurt...I'm not a good girl..never be good...but i don't know why...at this moment...i wish i did not do the bad things that i have done...to him...i should just ran as far as i can from him and not plant this hate tree inside my heart...now i feel like I've been haunted by this guilty...its really fear me enough since last night...last night, i have a time for myself... i open up my mind for a while, looking back at the best things that he have done to me...i cry..but inside my heart...under the hate tree...perhaps God want to show me that everything that i have done to him are wrong..the path that i have took are also wrong...what can i do now???nothing because i can't turn back time...and never can turn it like what i want...

thank you and goodbye~yezzaaaaa...

and here...to my "friend"...i also have done wrong to you...i know everyone have their own authority in deciding to forgive someone or not...i really tired...because I've been distasteful by someone on my behave in what i have done before...i admit its all my fault...here i do not want to do the same action like what i have done to my previous person that i care...but i will let it be like what it suppose to be...lost u now...may come another, to be my friends....i never regret about what had happened...i will look forward and never looking back...

and to A.I...ni kena pesan dalam bahasa melayu ni...al-maklumlah...anda kan datangnye dari india...ekeke...terima kaseh sebab banyak bagi nasihat, kata2 semangat...ngan kata2 yang banyak jugaknye tak boleh pakai...kata2 tak masuk akal pun banyak gak...hehehe...

p/s:....kadang-kala semua orang berhak diberi peluang kedua...tapi kalau ianya dah pun disia2kan...lebih baik kita sedar sendiri yang kita ni tak mampu berubah semata2 hanya untuk penuhi hajat orang yg tersayang...renung2kan dan selamat beramal...

25 comment dari peminat:

Anonymous said...

ceh...klau dtg dr india wat per tngl pesan lam bm lak....tngl la pesan lam bhs tamil ker urdu ke....

saypOOL rafhtello said...

sabar..rmi laki2 yg baik mcm aku ni...

Atiqah said...

hmm bila dh terlalu syg, perit rsenye bila hati ni dikhianati..tp syg juga nk melepaskan..so bg peluang kedua dgn hrpn die x wat lg..tp adakah kepercayaan itu msh utuh dan kukuh spt dahulu??

cokelat lover said...

wei..ko dh ada anonymous..caya la..haha
beb,sabar la..ptt la resh gelisah smlm..ak pn xpndai nk ckp per pasai ak pn mcm ko gk..gagaga..happy outside,pain inside..yg dh brlalu tu,let it be..ceh..xpe2..saypool rafhtello ada sbg pggnti..ngeee~~

Miss Ziela said...

anymous
hahaha...xpe2..sbb sy ni bukanlah org india...saya tahu cakp bm je...
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saypool
mcm mane aku nak tahu ko ni tol2 baik ke x?kalau de tulis kat dahi oraitla gak...ekekeke..
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tiqah
peluang terakhir telahpun diberi...bak kate mat salleh.."tiade maap bagimu"hehehe
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husna
hahaha...anymous macam terasa je kan...ekekekeke

Alynn Notnot said...

byk2 bersabar yep :)

Miss Ziela said...

insyaAllah...slagi hayat dikandung badan...hidup ni tetap akan ku jalani...chewahhhh...hehe

gjoy88 said...

ape ak nk ngarot kt ko nie eh...
ermmmm jap den pkir....
nsb bek den xtrer bi..
tp sume yg jadi kt ko 2 wt ko lbey tau pe erti idup sebenanyer...
nie bwu ckit dugaan..
lum lg esok ke luse ke.....mgu dpan ke...
tp mst la tbah hadapi sume nie...
setiap org ad klbihan n kkurangan diorg...
nobody nobody perfect....
pe pn...
ak tau ko stronger enough to face this thing..rite ziela~~

Miss Ziela said...

thanks ggoy88...thanks 4 ur kindly advice...hehe

Mohd Halif said...

ur true happiness will come directly inside ur heart w/out realize..beleve it or not..watching la replie's believe it or not..

Miss Ziela said...

u r not God...don't dare to get back into my life...please go away far as u can mohd halif....i still have that hate tree inside my heart for you...i just feel guilty cuz involving ur family in our case...i still can consider whats good or not...but the things has happened...i can't change...i will remember those lie that u r telling me...those words that make me hurt...those plastic action that u show...please don't get me wrong with this entry...i regret for being ur girl before...u will not change...tq

Anonymous said...

uish...sabo2...

Miss Ziela said...

uishhh...ye ye...sebab sabo la sy leh berfikir lagi baik buruk utk si dia 2...hehe

Anonymous said...

aper yg sebnarnyer dier wat kat awak???? saper Mohd alif tu?

Miss Ziela said...

emmmmmm....sape awak ni ek...
mohd halif tu is my ex-bf...nape?

Anonymous said...

owh...so skang dah ada pegnnti lom...sorry mayb this is drastic question..benci tol u kat die..

Miss Ziela said...

ade ape hal dgan laki..
semuanye memeningkan kepala...
sowey...takde penganti pun tak pe...
kalau 10 macam ni...macam suh sy bunoh diri je rasenye..hehe

Anonymous said...

HuhUHHu..Mcm KEs PaRah JEr Ni..Tkpew Life MUSt gO oN......

Anonymous said...

like ur statement...Benci Tp Windue.. frm:- Aduka Kelana

Miss Ziela said...

hahaha...aduka kelana...tu tuk org len...tu tuk kucing kat umah yg tak reti2 nak dengar cakap...hehe

Anonymous said...

another statement that can be ur best medicine...

" Larilah hingga ke hujung dunia,
berenanglah hingga ke dasar lautan,
terbanglah hingga ke langit ke
tujuh, kalo ada jodoh, pasti
bersatu jua..."

Anonymous said...

above statment is from me :- aduka berkelana...happy selalu...

Anonymous said...

above statment is come from me - aduka berkelana

Miss Ziela said...

aiyarkkkkkkkkkk...
i plak penah dengar

"bercintalah sampai ke langit ketujuh...sampai ke awan biru...sampai ke bulan terang pun...bercintalah bagai nak rak sekalipun...kalau dah takde jodh...berpisah jua"

Anonymous said...

hhahaha..opposite from my statement..aduka,,